Monty girl

I so relate to what you wrote. It could have been me, and there is a strange comfort in knowing I am not the only one who feels that way. Asking for help is really hard for me. But what I realised a while back is that, when someone asks me for help it makes me feel better about myself. So if you ask us for help it might make us feel better and less powerless.
(((((Hugs))))) for you, whatever.
Caroline