LOL

That made me laugh, at 16:35PM it's my first for the day THANKS!!!

I know I need to be more responsible and rope in some help (financially) and logically I make these decisions when I'm broke. But as soon as I have money, impulsive splurging, it's like I have no fricken say in the matter, and I KNOW that sounds nuts, but that's how it feels...

I don't really care what I splurge on, make up, shoes, clothing, junk food... it varies, depending on how much excess I have. As soon as I see X amount available...I withdraw it...

Feel so stupid cos I have nobody to blame for my financial mess but me!
A little birdie told me I'm getting an increase soon, so hopefully that will help. instead of making me spend MORE... who knows, maybe once I'm actually ON meds I won't be so impulsive? Maybe I'm just wishing on shooting stars? grasping on straws? hoping for a miracle???

I don't know, I don't know much about anything right now, and that IRRITATES me coz I'm a supposed "knowitall"