I told T about finding a photo of a woman with the same name as my birth mother and looking identical to me and tried to explain how even though she isn't related its helped change something. T said how its maybe Made it real, that there must be someone out there relatEd to me and taken it out of the fantasy realm.

I showed her the photo so she wouldn't think me mad and she agreed it looked very much like me.

I've kEpt the photo of the woman, something about her brings me xomfort, its from the 1800's, i've never been able to tap into anything spritual, I think the loss of my birthmother has always left such A big hole that believing in anything has felt impossibe, but when I looked at the photo of that woman Who has my birth mothers name and looks just like me, it feels spritual, its so wierd, its like it was Put there so I could at last find closure.