thanks everyone im sure the reason i had such a rough night is because i was supose to have T today and i was so angry that T cancelled and all the other day i was so scared i was going to feel out of controle all day and believe me i hate that feeling.so i just didnt want to deal with today at all.BUT im ok infact im going on a hike today with a dear friend who has suffered a great loss and is dealing and is a great sorce of inspiration for me and im gonna soak it up a little.you all are so awsome around herei cant give enough hugs