I am having a day where all I want to do is sleep.
I feel very depressed today and want it to all just go away, or I would like to just burry myself away until the day is gone.
It seems that everything I do is wrong and I feel so brain dead, I can't even thimk straight.
I have this horrible fear that something bad is going to happen and I don't know what.
The rest of me just feels so empty inside, so I came here to write this out. I hope some one can see this and give me some kind of feedback as I am feeling lost and want to cry but the tears won't come.
I feel like i am nothing in this world but a looser, and I just exist day to day
I try and keep my thoughts from racing around all mixed up by sleeping, butthen I just have bad dreams.
Somedays I think my meds do not work at all, and i am just taking placebo's.
I have no energy at all and there are so many things I should be doing today, but I just can't.
I can't figure this all out, yestyersay I felt fne and wasable to clean my whole house , do laundry, walk to the store etc. and today feels like someone else is in me and I can't do anything.
Well I will let you go, you have probably heard enough if youare reading this.
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