wrote an entry. got lost. maybe that's a sign?

i'm just here because i'm here, and i don't know where else to speak. seems even in the midst of depression, when i don't feel i deserve a voice anywhere, part of me still wants to have one.

i don't deserve a response. i've been gone a month and a half. depression-free for that time, and thought i'd never be back. and here i am. sucks.

i don't have a t. i can't afford one, nor the meds that i need. so many medical bills already, and more on the way. i just want to be normal. the kind of normal that doesn't fall into this pit so many damn times. or ever.

sorry. i don't want to bother you. i just. want to be better.