Blue, you gave me a lot to think about here also. I think that my Mom showed me a lot of love, but at the same time she didn't make me think the world was safe so that I could venture out. I also couldn't talk about intimate matters that I needed to, that really bothered me, and that I needed help with. So, not everything was right in the relationship. Yes, it probably was kind of disabling. I didn't learn to depend on myself or have confidence in myself.

It is interesting to think about how Bt triggered me. Compared to Kt, she did. I think because she didn't do anything for me, and wanted to push me away. I wanted her to love me but she wanted me to be independent. She did love me in a way, because she DID push me out, though on the other hand, she let me stay in therapy for 5 years. By PUSHING me, it wasn't out, but wanting me to be independent from her. She had excellent intentions, but it felt like rejection to me, and I can't stand rejection.