Rainbow - I sure understand that emotion. There have been many days (today included) when the ONLY reason I decided to stay around as a person was because my T would be hurt if I gave up. Sure, I have a small handful of other people who matter to me - not many though. But sometimes life is just too hard for too long and a person can give up on the inside. It is not about me being selfish as I had one person years ago tell me. It is because life has been what it is. Bottom line for me is that right now in this time of things, therapy does give me a reason to live. Sorry if I shared to much.