(((((Ghost))))),

Sorry I'm coming to your thread a little late. I know those scary feelings well, since I've felt them for all of my Ts for years. (I've had different Ts through the years.) Needing T is such an intense feeling for me too, and it scares me a lot. I don't want to have those needs. It sounds like you have a great, understanding T. I love that she gave you a chocolate bar!

I try to tell myself what others have told me, and that is that the feelings won't kill me. My last T would always tell me to sit with my feelings, but I often distracted myself with some physical or mental activity because it was too hard to sit with those needy feelings. I guess we have to just keep going to therapy, and keep telling our Ts how we feel, and "trust the process."