I just spent ages writing a message back and it got deleted. I can't believe it. Yes I am taking zoloft. I have less rubbish going on in my head but I feel terribly depressed. Worse than before. I don't seem to care about anything much anymore. I used to be and still am the worlds biggest people pleaser. But since I've been taking the medication I don't care as much about pleasing some of the people I used to be addicted to pleasing. Today when I got out of bed the horrible thoughts were there blabbing away. Who knows why today was the day. But since I know they aren't my fault I can still trust that God isn't angry with me. But some days it's not that easy. I'm always having to check if I'm still a christian and if I'm still going to heaven. Thanks for your kind words, it was encouraging. I'm glad that you have less worrying thoughts now. I'm going to read some more of your posts. {{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}} It's good to know that I'm not alone with my annoying thoughts.