Thanks Rohag for all the links =) and advice

MarkfromUS: I don't have any amazing insight that can pull you out of the hole right now. Specifically to your question about medications... from what I know about bipolar it includes depressed states and then other states that don't include depression. There are many medications for each type of thing, they each affect different people differently. As a result it's normally best to find a psychiatrist. However with no insurance I know this can put you in a bind. I don't know what it takes when uninsured to get to a regular doctor but they can diagnose too, and may be able to help you if you're interested in medication.
some medicines can actually be very cheap. I know walmart and I THINK target have some plan where you can get generics for $5 ... if you're lucky and that medication were to work for you =) The prescription will probably be more of the problem.

Just trying to think I'm sorry if this came out fuzzy, I'm sleepy and a bit off right now. Best of luck, keep posting here if you like/gain from it - I know I do, it helps me alot =)