Dad,
Bless you for posting here and reaching out. I'm going to re-read this, think about it, and pray about it...but I really commend you and your wife.
The only thing I'll say for now, is....that if it is BP (and I know there's rif-raf about Dxing so young), but she is absolutely terrified. She doesn't know how to stop it. It's absolute hell to suffer from BPD (as you noticed with your Mom), and she sees how much it hurts you....she can't stop it...she's in (if I may be so bold) a lot more pain than those around her (although I know it hurts. If you'd like to talk to my Mom, I'm sure she'd email with you. I started displaying symptoms at age 7).
What meds is she on? Have you only seen one psychiatrist (pill guy)?
People with bipolar have an incredible capacity to feel..both good and bad. They are some of the most loving people on the planet...it also goes the other way (hurt feelings, etc).
It sounds like an inpatient program with observation may be what she needs...I had my first inpatient hospitalization at age 8 for suicidal idealogy....and at 8, I couldn't even comprehend "death" - I just didn't want to live. That's how bad the BPD was...even at 8.
I'm going to re-read this and really think about it. But you're not alone...and I'm saying a prayer for you guys.
(welcome)
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"We all have the potential to go our darkest place. Most of us manage to leave a light on."
(I think I need a new bulb!)
Here's to helping each other navigate the darkness.
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