Sigh...this was beautiful. Thank you, Echoes.

MUE- I am often SO embarrassed and feel so much shame about just what you said. I crave that soft voice, it melts me and makes me want to curl up and be a baby. But there is this awful side of me that wants to scream, "SHUT UP!" and someone talking to me like that makes me very LITERALLY sick to my stomach, too. What the heck is that about? I have no idea. Or maybe its my defense against being hurt and allowing yself to have a mother? I dont recall ever wanting my mother to be soft with me. I dont know but that reaction in me to softness causes me such shame.