I've been struggling so much to keep it together. I feel like I could hurt myself. I feel like if one more thing doesn't turn out the way that I want, I'm going to go off the deep end. I feel so angry so easily now and it has become a daily thing for the past few weeks. I'll be okay for a while and all of a sudden all of the things that have been bothering me will pop up in my mind and I'm in a hole that I can't crawl out of. I've on medication now, but it doesn't seem to be working...it's pretty much all trial and error right now...I feel like a guinea pig. I've also been trying to get back in touch with my spiritual side...things like reading the bible, praying, talking to my aunt (who is a preacher) about my problems. After I talk to her things are okay for a few hours and then I go back to feeling enraged and out of control...I don't know what to do...my life is not the way I want it to be and I don't understand why I deserve to feel this way...God has yet to show me that...I just keep waiting...