Sorry, to clarify: I mean Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) vs Bipolar (BP) 2.

I've told some people, but my brain feels like hogwash right now, but it's almost like I get some sense of satisfaction putting the garbage in my head on paper/into e-mail.
I honestly am beginning to look at myself like a freak. I'm feeling very sorry for myself, I don't want to drain people, but I feel I need some form of attention in order to get through this day.
I want to climb into a hole, but I feel lonely.