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Old Jun 08, 2010, 05:29 AM
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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6 View Post
Sigh...this was beautiful. Thank you, Echoes.

MUE- I am often SO embarrassed and feel so much shame about just what you said. I crave that soft voice, it melts me and makes me want to curl up and be a baby. But there is this awful side of me that wants to scream, "SHUT UP!" and someone talking to me like that makes me very LITERALLY sick to my stomach, too. What the heck is that about? I have no idea. Or maybe its my defense against being hurt and allowing yself to have a mother? I dont recall ever wanting my mother to be soft with me. I dont know but that reaction in me to softness causes me such shame.
Wow, Blue, I can't believe how EXACT your feelings mirror mine when it comes to this. What a relief that I am not alone....But I would like to figure it out....I wonder if I'll have to courage to address it with T...
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