I've been asking the same question for weeks...BPD/BP? Doctor confirmed BPII, yet I'm still worried about having BPD added to my list. Things I've read in the forum speak volumes...take a look at the info below. I've changed text color where applicable to myself...

A person with this disorder will also often exhibit impulsive behaviors and have a majority of the following symptoms:

• Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment
• A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation
• Identity disturbance, such as a significant and persistent unstable self-image or sense of self
• Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating)
• Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior
• Emotional instability due to significant reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)
• Chronic feelings of emptiness
• Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)
• Transient, stress-related paranoid thoughts or severe dissociative symptoms(that's me right now...everything's so surreal, like my body's on autopilot, no idea what's going on around me, it's like here, but at the same time not...) Dunno if that makes sense...

SO I EXPERIENCE ALL THE ABOVE
Anyway, my intention was not to hog your post with my self-pity!!!

I just wanted to say that I understand...
Hope you feel better soon Suga, (sorry I'm not much help today...)

>>>>>>>HUGS<<<<<<<