I know this isnt recent but I was triggered by my own post. (is that possible?) I was helping someone who had a miscarriage. Same type of thing happened to me. My son. at 5.5 months into pregnancy was born due to being induced. he was missing a leg and had not formed a proper chest cavity. he had spina bifida and all of his important organs were in the stomach. we knew he wouldnt have survived. I chose to induce labor and let my baby die in my arms. As of July 24th, My son, Luke would be 11. He was born on July 24h at ten pm, died at 12:50 am on july 25th. He lived almost three hours. We had him baptized and measured just like any other baby.

Ive always grieved for him. In silence and out loud. Ive kept him in my heart for 11 years now. All Ive ever wanted was to hear somebody call me mom. I know it wasnt in the plans for me. Ive never been able to conceive since. I often wonder what my life will be like when I get to be retired. My husband loves me, stays with me, but I know hes always wanted a child. The guilt I feel is horrible.

I grieve a lot over luke, but today the hurt inside is horrible.

thanks for letting me get this off my chest
C