BlackPup....hear ya, and it's a crappy place to be.
I'm curious... you said that the doc has you on ADs. Only ADs? No mood stabilizer??? Is it a P-doc or a GP? I ask because of personal experience of having things go REALLY bad when I was just on ADs with a GP. Misdiagnosed + mismedicated = major mess.
Those were the red flags that popped out in reading your post. Hope you can find the key to getting things better -- that may be a place to start, and hope it's some help to you.