I share the same feelings as you. I don't want to have to go back to the hospital and if I did, would I be allowed out? I think sometimes I try to over-complicate things, b/c I need and answer to everything. I start one thought, which then turns into another, etc. until they all snowball and all of the sudden in my brain, I can no longer handle work/people/life/etc. Depending what I'm obsessing over. Then my brain goes to the point If you can't handle work/people/life, what is your purpose? Which is when I crash and usually start crying. (Usually from 11-2 at work everyday.)

The problem is that bipolar people tend to over analyze everything. The solution is stopping the thoughts before we start obsessing. Tapping and affirmations are a good way to ground yourself, also using the coping skills that you know, that work. Also, believe in yourself that you can make it.