So it's been a week on Topamax and while I'm not at one hundred percent I'm definitely not scraping the bottom like I was. I'm leaving the house, actually being social, sorta doing housework and starting to feel re-interested in my old hobbies.

External situations are still massively stressful but I'm about to go out for the third time in three days which is like more than I have in the last three months combined.

Being the naughty rogue that I sometimes am I'm ramping up a little faster than i'm supposed to but so far my biggest side effect is tingling in my feet. Today I was sitting on my parents back porch sitting cross-legged in a rocking chair balancing a glass of wine, two weeks ago on Geodon if I could even have made the drive I would have been laying on the couch drinking out of an unbreakable plastic sippy cup. I really missed being me. Yay for effective medication!