I just found out that my husband's Grandma, who helped raise him while his father was in Nam, has bladder cancer. He is going to be devistated. He is very close to his Grandma as was he close to his Grandpa before his death. Later today, we have to go to the funeral home, then tomorrow to the funeral of his great uncle, Grandma's brother. It is such a sad time for this family.

I am not sure I am able to handle this. I must play the part of the supportive wife now, and I just don't do death. After my parents' deahths this family held me together. I must be there for them! I think I will call my counselor just for safe keeping. As much as I need them for support, I need support too.

I HATE CANCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE DEATH!!!!!!!! I HATE FEELING LIKE THINGS ARE OUT OF MY CONTROL.!!!!!!!