i think most of us here have a hard time asking for help. we understand when others ask for it, and most of us are very happy to give help to others...but we become very awkward and uncomfortable when we need it ourselves.
monty, i am here to help in any way that i can. if you ever need to talk, just send me a PM you don't even have to start the conversation, just say hi...and i'll be right there to help you out however i can.
i think it was brave of you to come here and admit that, because i know how hard it can be to say it or to even write it. BRAVO! on a job well done. take extra care of yourself and stay safe. i am here even if you just need someone to be silent with.
(((((((((((((monty))))))))))))))

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