(((((((ifeeltheweight)))))))
I'm sorry you're going through a rough time right now. Do you have anyone you can talk to about how you're feeling? A therapist, family doctor, family member or friend? It helps a lot to talk to someone who is a good listener.

Also, if you're not taking any anti-depressants, you may want to consider trying. Sometimes it's a large part of recovery.

If you ever need someone to talk to, you can also feel free to send a pm to me. I'd be happy to chat with you.