I cannot take this rollercoaster ride any longer.
When I am high and flying like a kite I am still going down a path of destructive behaviors. When I am low I am all buried like a mummy and still feeling destructive.
I cannot live like this.
This is incredibly frustrating.
How dare this abuse that poisoned my mind and raped my soul of having any type of normal life or decent relationship continue to just beat down on my.
WTF..................I cannot relive it for another minute.
I cannot partake in this anymore.