((((((Sj))))))) I hear you and I hear your pain.

I was once given an analogy which helps me still. I'll share it in the hope it might help you too. I was told that recovery is like climbing a mountain. You haul yourself up to the top, believing that it will be the end of your journey, only to find that there is a valley you have to go through before you can actually reach the top of the mountain. This happens time and time again. In our journey to cross the mountain range we can get to the top and have to go down again in order to reach the end.

Take care of you. Have a rest and look at the view (if you can).

Caroline