I'm fairly new to all this but I would first say that obviously you are not alone. I signed up for this because I was elated to notice that I am not the only person who feels upset for no reason or can't seem to find the energy to get out of bed in the morning. That helpless feeling went away when I figured out that depression is why I'm always uneasy. I had an emotionally unavailable father who wanted a son and got me, a cheating ex who I recently got drunk and told him I missed him but still hate him, and despite all of the people in these forums I feel alone too. But it helps to know there are others. Hell, it helps to just rant on here every now and then. I'm a big fan of physical activity to alleviate the emotional pain. I run and use a punching bag.