I have always felt sooo alone... like I'm the only one that ever felt the way I do. Had a really crappy day but at least I have this to go to and didn't loose it as bad as I usually do. You are all so dear to me. Im not much of a communicator, or able to put into words exactly how I feel. Reading whats posted here and the responces help me to better understand myself. Thank you.
I cant afford a T.. or meds.. I just try to get through each day and it keeps getting harder. I have lost intrest in everything.. I do make it into work but keep hoping that something would fall out of the sky and crush me before I get there. I try so hard and no one even notices me or the work I do. I'm not a smart person can only read on about a 4th grade level. and in my mid 50's I know it wont get any better. Where I work is just like it was in high school,,, you have the cheer leaders the jocks the cool kids and the outcasts.. I'm still and aways have been the outcast. I bealive in God and feel like even he dosn't care about me.