I DIDN'T TELL THE PDOC!!!
Thought we could handle me, 1 mess at a time
Still wrapping my head around my BPII dx, can't handle anymore on my plate right now. know what I mean??

Also, I'm thinking, maybe I can learn to not be all those things I highlighted?, I don't know, I just know I wanna do this 1 baby step at a time, 1 breath at a time...I don't want to overwhelm myself and then regret rejecting the ant-anxiety meds he wanted to prescribe...I'm thinking if I can do this slowly, I can avoid freaking out...
but maybe that's the over-confident manic me talking? I really don't know, I'm still figuring this (me) out...

Thanks guys for your support,concern, well wishes and understanding
PS. Hope my grammar and structure was better today