Arg - I am starting t oreally get myself down. I've spent so much time getting to know myself, my life and BP - I've really made the effort.
I've realised the effect triggers have on us and the importance of removing them completely from your life, or at least staying away from them.

Well, if a person in your life is a trigger, and you make peace with the concept that this person cannot be a part of your life for the sake of your mental well-being, why is it that they always seem to crop up at the wrong time? Why can they not just respect your decision? Especially when that person knows BP VERY well too, and the decision was more or less mutual?

I was just finding my feet, monitoring my moods, coping with life... and now get thrown such a huge curve ball. I'm angry and hurt. I now feel fragile and hopeless. Forget mixed episode - I think this depression deulx again.
It's not fair on me, nor the people around me that care and support me. I could kill right now, I'm so angry at someone's ability to hurt me this way.