Thank you BlackPup for your input. Thank you for reminding me that I am a person and I have a right to weakness and failure sometimes. In retrospect, without the experience, I would not have known that I have BPD and would not have sought treatment and be more aware of my own behavior that are symptoms of the illness. This illness, in a way has been a lifesaver...helping me set my priorities so I have lesser stress and I could be good to myself. Take care too...