Inky-long time no talk. I'm sick to heart about all that you are going through. If they let you go you can draw unemployment and have more of an opportunity to look for something more to your liking and talent. I guess now would be a good time to look for a new place to live - it's time your sister maybe got a job...and your mother - maybe taking in one child to babysit. It will give your little girl someone to playwith and socialize with. You keep going because you have an inner strength that a lot of people don't have. You keep going because of the moral strength that you have developed during your time in the service. And again, thank you for your service to our country. There are a lot of us out who are rooting for you, behind you, and with you in spirit. I hope that counts for something. I pray that things will start looking up for you. Remember you have a very rare talent in your writing - write that book on your experiences in the service. And are you utilizing your benefits from being in the service? You never say. But again it's none of my business. Just know that I care and I would love to hear from you. (((((INKY)))))