So I went home last night to an empty house. Her things were gone. And to make matters worse, both of my daughters were out with their boyfriends. So the house was completely empty and so quiet. All I had there were the dogs. (which, by the way, I got for her because she loves pets, and I was trying to make her happy)
I cried when I walked through the bedroom door and all her things were gone. But as I started cleaning up a bit, I felt better. But then her ex made a comment on facebook that just set me off again.
M did come by the house on her way to work (she works overnight), and came by again on her way home this morning. We talked some this morning, and although I'm not completely convinced that she's not leaving my life, and that we'll still be together, I do feel better. But I'm still in the pit.
I did get some insite reading someone elses post this morning, and it made me look at things in a different light. I just wish I could shake this dark shadow that's enveloped me, I need to see the sun again.