I've considered dialing 911 and just let them drag me out of here. Maybe drugged so I don't notice I'm leaving the perimeter I've created in my mind. But what if I do and they come to deal with me, not physically ill, not bleeding, not unconscious and someone a mile away has a choking baby or a horrible wound. I want out of this prison and I want help, or I wouldn't have bothered coming to this site and saying as much as I have. Who knows who might be watching.