I am so sorry Christina. I just saw your post, or I would have replied sooner.

I know the pain of loosing two babies so close together. Not even ending the grief of one before the next one hit. You indicated at the time that he wasn't looking well, sometimes they can have a mild stroke that paralyzes them like that. I have seen that happen before. He was a very lucky rattie to have you for his mommie to take care of him when he was not well. Not many ratties have good mommies that would care that much.

I know that special bond between little rats & people that are willing to give rats a chance.....as they are very special loving critters that go beyond what words can really describe.

My heart feels your pain. When I was 21, I lost the cat I had from the age of 5 & the next week, I lost my rat (Flower). It was a blow that took me forever to get over. It was just after I met the guy I ended up getting married to & he thought I was crazy to have such feelings for my pets being my babies.....he soon learned to love our 4 legged babies too though as he had never had any pets growing up. That lack of having to care for & give of yourself completely is something that everyone needs to experience even though there is pain with the loss, the wonderful memories of the love between them & us, is worth every minute of the grief, knowing that we gave them the unconditional love that they deserve to have & that many other 4 legged babies don't get that kind of opportunity has always made me feel how important it is to give them the good home & my love.

Praying for your peace & wonderful memories to hold onto.