Thanx for replying to my post I'm still feeling like poop!!! I was hoping to go to sleep last night and hope today would've been such a better day. but, it's not. Not my days or nightmares! everything just feels so for real and I guess it's all just taking it's toll. No, I'm not on meds yet when I get back on my feet i will find what's best for me. for know I can deal with crying spells. Home, ya in a way it's positive. I'll get alot of affection from my mother and brothers. but, I lose my silence, My Isolation and privacy. At the same time it just makes alot of memory's resurfes being home and not alone. I keep my distance from my mom's boyfriend and a OPEN EYE out when I sleep or shower! thanx again soscared
keep in touch and I will deffinitly keep posting gives me sanity.

ABOUT THE NINTH HOUR JESUS CRIED OUT IN A LOAD VOICE, "ELOI,ELOI, LAMA SABACHTHANI?"~WHICH MEANS~"MY GOD, MYGOD,WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?"
~MATTHEW27:46.
MY GOD,MYGOD WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?WHY ARE YOU SO FAR FROM SAVING ME,SO FAR FROM THE WORDS OF MY GROANING?~ PSALM 22:1