Yes BPGirl, sugahorse, Skully, and BlackPup are hitting the nail right on the head, at least according to my experience. The mania felt fine and in fact, I went through my first hospitalization completely manic and very nearly enjoying every minute. The first crash followed, as soon as I got home, which put me right back in the hospital for another week. As soon as I was released, I starting crashing further, and I have never experienced anything remotely close to that feeling. Regular everyday depression, yes, but not the depression that followed my mania. I don't ever want to go there again. I guess I'm just saying hang in there. When I got the right meds working for me, the difference was day and night.

Wishing you well,
greylove