Quote:
Originally Posted by greylove
Yes BPGirl, sugahorse, Skully, and BlackPup are hitting the nail right on the head, at least according to my experience. The mania felt fine and in fact, I went through my first hospitalization completely manic and very nearly enjoying every minute. The first crash followed, as soon as I got home, which put me right back in the hospital for another week. As soon as I was released, I starting crashing further, and I have never experienced anything remotely close to that feeling. Regular everyday depression, yes, but not the depression that followed my mania. I don't ever want to go there again. I guess I'm just saying hang in there. When I got the right meds working for me, the difference was day and night.
Wishing you well,
greylove
|
When I was17I was hospitalized for8days@charter BHC for2suicide attempts in a month&b4I got there I was soooo depressed but then I became manic there&actually enjoyed it&they were confused b/c I was there4depression. But then they said I was bipolar. I think the reason I refused help4so long is b/c I love being manic. I feel like I can climb mtns&do anything in the world. I don't feel so tired&I talk a lot. I have so many thoughts&I start being more creative, but then it all comes crashing down, shattering like glass&I hate the world, myself&God4making me. I just want2sleep&cry¬ eat&sleep&cry some more. Definitly get help cuz when u crash its gonna hurt