I agree with the above poster. Tell your husband to take the reigns for a bit. You need to get stable again...I know inpatient can sometimes be horrible, but for now, it would give you a chance to relax and know that you can't hurt yourself there and you'll be watched and taken care of. It'll allow you to get some solid sleep and I know for me, when I sleep well, I can manage my racing irrational thoughts better (whoever invented sleep deserves an award!!). The MAIN point is: YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Ever. You aren't going to be this way forever and you can come to a place where being bipolar can be a small blip in the back of your head. Simmering on low.

For now: tell your husband and get checked in somewhere...only for a few days. I'll keep checking back to see how you're doing...write as much as makes you feel comfortable, if it helps.

~Alicia