Thanks everyone.

My husband calmed me down and we made some decisions. I even made him call his dad (pediatric intensivist) and he agreed that I should probably not be at work right now. He said when the my doctor figures out what the mass actually is, he'll find a specialist for me. My husbands mom said I should make an appointment at Duke where they may actually know what they're doing. Also we're not going on the trip we were supposed to go on _with my mom_ to my cousins graduation. I think that would be _too much estrogen_ in one place, and then I would really snap. It literally makes my chest hurt because there is so much tension between my mom, my aunt, and my grandmother. Then I take it out on my husband, and then he gets mad, yells at my mom, and leaves. (he's a little oppositional defiant). So I'm just going to avoid the situation all together.

I'm just trying to determine what I should file the FMLA under, mental or physical? I'm thinking mental, because the way out long term disability works, I think I would still be eligible as a continuation of the last period. I think it resets after 6 months though...and that was 7 months ago...booo...I'm just glad I kept the buy-up plan for short term and long term disability. Not that I don't want to work, because I do, but I can't handle personal stressors out side work while I am at work, nor can I handle the personality clashes and my constant need to question, why. People also don't like when you take their job and streamline it so they can be more productive. They also are insecure of the fact, that I may know more than them, at least in Excel..

My husband also pointed out that what the mass probably is effects your hormones, which is why I've been having head aches, excessive sweating, and crazy mood swings, and maybe if the problem was fixed I wouldn't have to take so much medication. Especially, the Effexor....boo effexor.