OMG.....I need to rant.....I'm telling you all up front, I'm sorry for ranting....

my mother....my mother....my mother....she is just one selfish person who let herself to say whatever she wants....but you anybody says the same stuff that she tells people, she will flip out....

I think by the end of her trip, I would not have any teeth in my mouth since I'm just grinding to not say anything to her abusive words and behaviors....

I took half a day off yesterday to take her to the embassy, then at night, I took her to the restaurant then shopping, because my little sister had exam....I spent like the whole month with my grumpy mom who insulting me and hurting me with things that she tells me....constantly putting me down....like today....I was at my sister's home and I ate a bit of food....my mother turns back and said...whenever you come here, you eat for three days....OMG....I got so embarrassed.....jeez....my sister didn't say anything....it was just a little bit of soup that I had....WTF....if anybody tells her such a thing, she will make everybody's life like a hell.....

I said okay, I told her that was really bad what she told me.....I think she understood a little bit, because right away she told me "oh, I'm making a very good food tomorrow, you should come here"....WTF....why do you say bad thing to hurt my feeling then you want to correct it? too late....

Then my sister tells me to take mom to Mexico....god, don't they see that? I have a job....I can't get off all of a sudden....I have just few days vacations per day....and honesty, I don't want to ruin them being with her and her attitudes.....

My sister doesn't do anything.....like yesterday morning she could have taken mom to the embassy instead of sleeping at home....not me getting off from work drive 20 miles back and forth to take her to the embassy and then drive another 40 miles to work.....

My mother is 64 years old but no behavior at all....such a shame....

My friends want to come and visit her, I really don't want them to see my mom....she says stuff that embarrass me....specially, she talks about money so much....it's really embarrassing....

I feel bad in one had that my mom is so depressed and hopeless....and I want her to be happy....I try my best to do everything for her....but she opens her mouth and says whatever she wants.....and I can't even complain to her, because she will make a big deal about everything.....argggg

sorry guys again for long ranting.....I really needed to take it out.....
thanks for reading
Marjan