i havent been with my sons father for years many years four years ago we were going to give it another shot and he blew it by getting another woman pregnant that was the last time i heard from him and was ok with it but then i heard from him and i told him off and told his wife he contacted me and hoped it had gotten rid of him for good. i havent had him around and dont need him he only brings pain everytime he comes around i get hurt. anyway after all of this stuff with him and his wife he blames me for his current situation and said that things with us could been nice but had to get ugly over something petty. i dont think my feelings are petty and thats how i took it i dont know how else he would mean by petty unless its that i told his wife but she should know he was trying to get back together while still being married. i dont even know what kind of person would even try something like that and why try to bother with me after all these years and junk hes done. urgh i just want him to go away and not contact me when he does its never ever about our son if he had been consistant with him before but he's never been there its just ugh. just shouldnot be happening
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How I long to be up rather than down, the eternal sorrow that I only escape for short periods. This must be how Persephone felt.
"Sleep. Those little slices of Death. How I loathe them." Edgar Allan Poe
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