Greylove & Skully - been there too, but my pdoc at the time did not connect the dots. Guess he was searchingn for the major highs that didn't seem to come along, and didn't understand that I could experience down, and then seriously DOWN!! (Like "I NEED HELP NOW!") I think at the time I thought i was mellow-dramatic, but in my messed up head i had it all rationed out!