Using trigger only b/c of my feelings that I put here.

Sorry all for posting this. I've been very needy lately. I'm ready to cry, just sit and cry, cry, cry, till there isn't anymore. I have to try and be strong for my son and not let him see me like that. I can't breakdown, I have to much to do....

IRL, I feel the people that I thought were going to be there for me, all just leave. I can't get anyone to come help my son while I try and get back to myself.

I really hate these days when I feel so helpless and all I want is someone to be here...meaning in my irl, in person for me.

I don't even know what to say. I feel so dead inside...so drained...gone...so numb physically, emotionally feeling every little hurt, sadness, deep seeded wound.

where am I to go....I don't really know...don't even know who to really turn to...maybe I shouldn't even be turning here, but I feel it is all I got left.