I'm sorry you don't have anyone in real life to help you out right now, that must be hard.
I agree you shouldn't cry infront of your son, but don't always hold it in, when you know he's not around, let it out. Crying releases stress hormones, you actually might just need a good old cry!

Do you have any friends or family who you could ask to help? Perhaps people don't know how much you are struggling?

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