((((((((((CThomas))))))))))))) My heart goes out to you. I know exactly how you feel. I've lost 6 babies myself. And never brought a full term baby into this world. Never could. And there are no answers as to why either. I always wonder too about the what ifs.. and why's. There is an emptiness in our hearts that will never be filled. I so understand the feelings you are experiencing. Please know you are not alone.