((( Abby )))

Yes, start with what you can do and what helps you. Therapy can be scary, and dealing with the stuff that is causing this dissociation or freezing up and all of these symptoms is hard work and scary. It is the only way to get past it and find the freedom to live your life in a reality that you can live with. You don't have to deal with all of it at once. You can learn to keep most of it contained while you work on a manageable amount. You need support to do this work. Therapists are able to help you to work with what is safe for you and keep the rest contained until you are ready. You have to tell them when you are dissociating, though. Dissociating means that you are feeling scared or not safe. It doesn't necessarily mean that you are in real danger at that moment though, or that you can't or shouldn't cope with what scares you so that you can push through it and it can't stop you anymore.

Start with what you can do. You can build on that. You might consider looking into DBT. DBT is designed to help people to be able to tolerate the reality they are living in even though it is scary and overwhelming, while learning the skills, bit by bit, to be able to cope and change what needs to change.