I want to die ,I feel ive lost all my online friends ,cant they see that this is who I am I may be a [censored] up nobody but hey this is me.......I was alone before It got me wondering why people were starting to like me (Its cause I run a self injury support group) now Im thinking whats the point in keeping everyone eles happy if Its doing nothing for me.I know that may sound selfish But everyone is leaving me and Im [censored] scared that I will be alone again.I know after reading this you will all come on saying You will miss me and that You care but you and me will both know that is not true Its just something in this life that You feel you have to do.My one good mate I thought I could trust (dot)Has had enough I can tell Its the same with others I get too know and love They all leave...............What the [censored] have I done wrong????
It gets me so angry.......that people lead me on thinking they like me then up and leave when things get tough...........I cant help the way I feel I cant help who I am.Why cant people see that......I may get so paranoid I may get so not trusting but that does not mean Im a nobody..or.does it.........I feel that people are saying things about me that may or may not be true and that just gets me so wound up........That I do pick fights and I do Hurl abuse.......I suppose it makes me feel better in a sick sort of way .....It makes me feel better towards myself that everyone hates me .......Im so alone yet so desperate not too be alone (that dont make sense I know)Like ive been told a few times I speak like a fool) ....................... cant write noomore .feel sick at myself.......feel angry .at myself...........feel let down by myself.................

<font color=purple> **Everyone who lives dies, but not everyone who dies has lived** </font color=purple>