Hello, and
Yes, there is a lot of stigma attached to mental illness, but try to keep reminding yourself that you suffer from an illness that is just as real as your rheumatoid arthritis. I'm glad you are seeking help, and although it can be a long and frustrating process to find the right med combo, it is worth it when you reach a point of stability (however, stability for bipolar sometimes means less frequent and less severe episodes, not a consistant happy medium). Everyone has been very kind and supportive to me here, and I'm glad you found us!!
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From the movie The Hours: "If I were thinking clearly, Leonard, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know. Only I can understand my condition. You live with the threat, you tell me you live with the threat of my extinction. Leonard, I live with it too."