CryingChild... you are who you are now but you don't have to remain that way. Like Dr. Phil says "How's that working for you?" It seems as if it's not working for you, maybe?

You don't have to make changes from one minute to the next or even one day to the next, but if you start working on things that bother you about you, people will see the change and may want to stick around to see the finished product. It may even be an incentive for others to do the same thing you are... and that is to improve yourself. ALL of us have room for improvement.

There's a saying that caught my eye once and I don't think I remember it well enough to quote it word for word but it goes kinda like this: "Don't be afraid to change. Be afraid if you're not changing."

Good luck! We're here for you. It's your choice whether you accept our help or not.